When I listen to some amazing songs like Casting Crowns, One Awkward Moment, I can’t help but wonder how these artists were able to write words and compose melodies to go with those words.
Did Mark Hall know his words and songs would speak to someone on the other side of the planet? Or is it just one big coincidence.
Is man made of the same stuff that allows a single cord to run through us all?
Or is it just one massive conspiracy theory. Is it a scientific experiment or the product of some calculations done on a computer somewhere that can tell the artist that a combination of certain words and certain cords would produce a certain emotion result in humans.
As an engineer, this makes more sense for my logical, analytical mind but I think I am just giving man too much credit.
There is a string and there’s a weaver of those strings.
I will be hitting the big 30 in November and the major question on my mind is what do I have to show for it?
Of course I can begin thinking and listing out all the “things” I think I have achieved – my job, my assets…etc but are they really worth it? Is this all my life amounts to?
This seems like one of those notes I used to write in my journal many years ago. I remember I often called it “my black book”. This was cos all the dark depressing thoughts I had were penned/penciled down in there (I should find it and dust it up). I did that for many years till I became stronger and better at dealing with them. This is not one of those notes.
Sunday, as I walked into FWC, I noticed on my left images and pictures of a man. A man that I had never seen before but I strangely recognized. As I entered church and sat down, I saw more pictures of this same man. I later realized that this was a man that made all of this happen. This was the man that God worked through to birth the immense structure and ministry under which I now sat. Through out that service and afterwards one word kept running through my mind – the word LEGACY. What will my legacy be? What will I be remembered for? What impact will my 3 decades on earth have produced? All these questions point me to one conclusion and that is that “I have failed you Lord”. As I sit and write this, I feel the great potential locked up within me that is gradually being snuffed out by the thorns in this life, by indiscipline, complacency and lack of planing. Which is why, starting today I commit to do the following;
– To break down my life’s vision statement
– To plan for it every step of the way
My exact plan for my career path (c-naptic) My exact plan for a woman My exact plan for marriage and settling down.
– To pray fervently for my fathers help and guide (I am a spiritual being above all else) and
– To do all this daily, no matter what.
“We must put a stop to such distractions and get into such a living relationship with God that our relationship with others is maintained through the work of intercession”
To those who have had no agony Jesus says, “I have nothing for you; stand on your own feet, square your own shoulders. I have come for the man who knows he has a bigger handful than he can cope with, who knows there are forces he cannot touch; I will do everything for him if he will let Me. Only let a man grant he needs it, and I will do it for him.” – The Shadow of an Agony, 1166 R
A typical pattern in most organizations that are starting out is that they have a lot of employees that are driven and energetic and who urgently take big decisions to move the organization from where it is currently (a start-up) to a much stronger organization.
The challenge with this pattern is that it breaks down at some point. As these organizations become successful they become complacent and that fire begins to whittle down until it is totally extinguished.
Craig Groeschel once said “Success kills pride, pride kills urgency and that is why people say nothing fails like success”
The idea here is not to just be urgent and to take decisions without thinking it through. No, the goal is to not be caught in the state of constantly analysing and reanalysing every possible scenario but to get up and go ahead with your idea.
The decision to step out with your idea is often not an easy one. Our design ideas are usually a reflection of who we are and there is that fear that your idea will be rejected or someone will poke so many holes in it and totally discourage you. So, we end up thinking about every scenario and digging into every detail – thus, we find ourselves stuck in the paralysis of analysis. The danger in this is not the analysis itself, it is the fact that you become paralyzed while doing this and therefore cannot react to an urgent situation or need that requires your attention.
Jeff Boss, a contributor on Forbes has outlined five points to help us urgently react and get rid of this paralysis;
- Set a “drop dead” date: Set a deadline that you should not exceed. Remember that other people (units and departments even customers) are most likely expecting your feedback. Preferably set a date before your actual deadline.
- Get a sanity check: Share your ideas with others. Not everyone, but people you trust and respect. Basically, bounce your ideas off them and get their feedback. No, do not setup long meetings (everybody’s time is precious). A casual conversation about your ideas will suffice. Now, you may ask, how does this help me make a decision faster? This exercise ensures that you get a fresh pair of eyes to look at those ideas and flag areas of issues hopefully long before you do.
- Curb your curiosity: Curiosity is the mother of invention but it also killed the cat. Know when to put on those breaks and slow down. It is unlikely that you will solve all of life’s problems tonight.
- Recognize that the moons will never align: According to ScienceFocus, the eight major planets of the Solar System can never come into perfect alignment. The last time they appeared even in the same part of the sky was over 1,000 years ago, in the year AD 949, and they won’t manage it again until 6 May 2492. He who watches the wind [waiting for all conditions to be perfect] will not sow [seed] – Ecclesiastes 11:4. In other words, don’t fret if your ideas or decision doesn’t feel quite complete. You can always improve on it later.
- Stair step your decisions: This basically involves breaking a major decision into smaller, easier to tackle ones. Its the little decisions that lead up to the main one.
A few days ago I was at “Next Shopping Mall” and I heard a song in Yoruba. The song is titled “Órenté” and it’s by “Adekune Gold”. Now the song is not fully in Yoruba, it does contain some English lyrics but it was quite nice.
Anyway, when I heard the song I had a strange feeling. I felt some weird love for the language and I was kinda proud that I was Yoruba. The next feeling was that I will like my kids to speak the language fluently. This second feeling was weird cos I think that’s what my father must have felt when he came home one day and insisted that we all begin speaking Yoruba to him – that never worked out. Instead I think it created a rift between us and him. We couldn’t really express our true selves because we had to rehearse everything we wanted to say then translate it from English to Yoruba before speaking it out.
However, the song was a good one and I ended up searching for it online and playing it back to back for a few days after. In the song, the guy is basically praising a lady for being loyal and sticking with him. He says
“we may not have money but we have health, we may not have money but we have peace of mind. We may not have a roof over our head but our life is as sweet as honey…“.
Now you know why I love the song 😉
Was listening to Signal by Sara Groves. It’s one of the songs on her new album – Floodplain.
“All the clichés about how fast kids grow are true. I woke up this morning eye to eye with you. The love songs and adages couldn’t explain the whole of all you’re becoming, body and soul“
I could relate with the words of the song and it brought out some emotions in me too. As I write this, K is 13 months and she’s a little more than the full length of my torso. I remember holding her a few minutes after she was born and I remember how very tiny she was then. Right now she’s feeling a bit independent – wanting to wear her shoes on her own and close her feeding bottle by her self. It’s really a glimpse of years to come (God willing), where she may be taking decisions about which school to go to and which man to marry – I quivered a bit as I wrote that. 🙂
Anyway, there’s really so much emotion and love that has shown these past year. It’s a different kind of love too, different from the love I have for E. It feels like the love God has for me; It’s deep, purposeful, intense and has no bounds. I know I can do anything and everything for her.
Sara ends the song in a way I’ll want E and K to remember me always. She says ;
“All the clichés about how much I love you are true. As big as the sky and up to the moon, a million a zillion, infinity plus one“
So, this is my first post and I have a weird need to start it by saying “Captain’s log. Stardate 16122020…”. The Stardate is obviously wrong but it is an actual date – todays.
My posts will be about myself, my experiences, the things I love and have learnt in technology (there will be a lot of this) and other things. “Myself” will expand into my personal life, my family life and most importantly, my walk with God. It is the most important aspect of my life, at least it should be…
Before I continue, I later did a Google search on stardates and found a website that calculates the stardates from a date and time. According to it, the stardate for the time of writing this is 98557.8. I have no clue if this is correct or if there’s any such thing as a stardate. I probably will research this later.
Back to my journal. I titled this the beginning of something beautiful because I hope that my writing will continue and that someday, hopefully when someone does read it (if ever), it will inspire, encourage and motivate them (much like all of C.S Lewis’s writing does for me) and even if it doesn’t, at least they’ll smile and have a good laugh. After all, “a merry heart doeth good like a medicine”.