A few days ago I was at “Next Shopping Mall” and I heard a song in Yoruba. The song is titled “Órenté” and it’s by “Adekune Gold”. Now the song is not fully in Yoruba, it does contain some English lyrics but it was quite nice.
Anyway, when I heard the song I had a strange feeling. I felt some weird love for the language and I was kinda proud that I was Yoruba. The next feeling was that I will like my kids to speak the language fluently. This second feeling was weird cos I think that’s what my father must have felt when he came home one day and insisted that we all begin speaking Yoruba to him – that never worked out. Instead I think it created a rift between us and him. We couldn’t really express our true selves because we had to rehearse everything we wanted to say then translate it from English to Yoruba before speaking it out.
However, the song was a good one and I ended up searching for it online and playing it back to back for a few days after. In the song, the guy is basically praising a lady for being loyal and sticking with him. He says
“we may not have money but we have health, we may not have money but we have peace of mind. We may not have a roof over our head but our life is as sweet as honey…“.
Now you know why I love the song 😉
Was listening to Signal by Sara Groves. It’s one of the songs on her new album – Floodplain.
All the clichés about how fast kids grow are true. I woke up this morning eye to eye with you. The love songs and adages couldn’t explain the whole of all you’re becoming, body and soul
I could relate with the words of the song and it brought out some emotions in me too. As I write this, K is 13 months and she’s a little more than the full length of my torso. I remember holding her a few minutes after she was born and I remember how very tiny she was then. Right now she’s feeling a bit independent – wanting to wear her shoes on her own and close her feeding bottle by her self. It’s really a glimpse of years to come (God willing), where she may be taking decisions about which school to go to and which man to marry – I quivered a bit as I wrote that. 🙂
Anyway, there’s really so much emotion and love that has shown these past year. It’s a different kind of love too, different from the love I have for E. It feels like the love God has for me; It’s deep, purposeful, intense and has no bounds. I know I can do anything and everything for her.
Sara ends the song in a way I’ll want my wife and kids to remember me always. She says ;
All the clichés about how much I love you are true. As big as the sky and up to the moon, a million a zillion, infinity plus one
I will be hitting the big 30 in November and the major question on my mind is what do I have to show for it?
Of course I can begin thinking and listing out all the “things” I think I have achieved – my job, my assets…etc but are they really worth it? Is this all my life amounts to?
This seems like one of those notes I used to write in my journal many years ago. I remember I often called it “my black book”. This was cos all the dark depressing thoughts I had were penned/penciled down in there (I should find it and dust it up). I did that for many years till I became stronger and better at dealing with them. This is not one of those notes.
Sunday, as I walked into FWC, I noticed on my left images and pictures of a man. A man that I had never seen before but I strangely recognized. As I entered church and sat down, I saw more pictures of this same man. I later realized that this was a man that made all of this happen. This was the man that God worked through to birth the immense structure and ministry under which I now sat. Through out that service and afterwards one word kept running through my mind – the word LEGACY. What will my legacy be? What will I be remembered for? What impact will my 3 decades on earth have produced? All these questions point me to one conclusion and that is that “I have failed you Lord”. As I sit and write this, I feel the great potential locked up within me that is gradually being snuffed out by the thorns in this life, by indiscipline, complacency and lack of planing. Which is why, starting today I commit to do the following;
- To break down my life’s vision statement
- To plan for it every step of the way
- My exact plan for my career path
- My exact plan for a woman My exact plan for marriage and settling down.
- To pray fervently for my fathers help and guide (I am a spiritual being above all else) and,
- To do all this daily, no matter what.
“We must put a stop to such distractions and get into such a living relationship with God that our relationship with others is maintained through the work of intercession”
To those who have had no agony Jesus says, “I have nothing for you; stand on your own feet, square your own shoulders. I have come for the man who knows he has a bigger handful than he can cope with, who knows there are forces he cannot touch; I will do everything for him if he will let Me. Only let a man grant he needs it, and I will do it for him.” – The Shadow of an Agony, 1166 R